Itchy hands.

That's what I really blame myself for. Why can't I just pretend not to see things and just allow them to be overlooked?

I checked out the pictures that Favourite Guy took with That Woman. Although those pictures were taken a few years ago and they have supposedly already broken up, the pictures were uploaded in August this year. The pictures were taken when they were still an item, so obviously they looked very close in them.

Lotsa thoughts went through my head - is he still thinking about her?

Yet, I had no rights to confront him because, I just am in no position to do so.

But my head spins when I thought about it. I feel like dying. And to think that I thought I've kinda gotten over it a little. But I realised that hearing about him talk about her is one thing, seeing them together is really another.

What's wrong with me?

The other day, mummy, bro and I did a prayer together and after which mummy gave her our blessings and she prayed that I would find a good husband soon. As if giving me a sign, I then caught a bridal bouquet at a wedding I attended recently. And from the depths of my heart, I was seriously hoping the person who would tie the knot with me is Favourite Guy. I couldn't help but think that, although rationally, I don't want myself to think that, because that will only mean more disappointment and heart-aches for me.

Plus the friendship saga that has just broken out. I don't know if I still have the strength to go on.